wholeheartedly

2012-01-25T16:36:00.000+07:00

i'm surely happy for knowing that this site is getting so private just for what i'm thinking about. not for the other's critics and etc. today is not a light day but still nice. i met stitch. i'm not sure if i never like him. maybe i liked him. or i still like him? gah. it's not a big deal for me to like someone and prove it to take some parts in my life, yes? no. now, it's one of a big deal! he ignores me. just now. i don't know why but it seems like our friendship-or-maybe-relation is getting worse and worse by the time. again, i just have no idea what the hell happened with this. how i miss you stitch,how i miss all the times in the night we have ever spent to talk each other. heart to heart, mind to mind. even just in bbm, but i miss the time when you send me some spirit's words. or when we're in trouble, you could give me some solutions. i really lost it. forever, ya?
it hurts me when i saw you smile to my-ex-best-maybe-friend, ah dammit when i have to write the word 'ex'. but best friend will not take all things that you have ever had slowly rite? i know she's much better than me, but.. ya okay i prove it now. if there's someone better, than i would be just beauty ignored. i still smile for you, stitch. i will still smile, no matter what the reason is. go get your life and i will always pray all the best for you, wholeheartedly :')

hello bandung!

2012-01-15T23:54:00.000+07:00

back to this city. back to reality. living in the dorm, making up my own room, preparing for this fourth (finally) semester and it seems i have so ready yet. tomorrow i will hit my morning lab of computation, feel a little bit lazy, i really wanna run over. lol. today was so happy, having a good single day with arlin. left my jakarta for a while, o i feel like i miss you already, J! :)
okay so this is a good start for making some resolutions in my academic's life. do the best, give the best, think positive, work hard and let God lead my way. there are so much dreams, and i'll make it become true. mom and dad, your daughter got ready already for this battle. chemical engineering, i will make you clap your hands on me! :D

PRICE TAG

2012-01-13T09:11:00.000+07:00

my sister and i were covering PRICE TAG by jessie. please kindly click the link below, watch and enjoy it. just get chillax :)

PRICE TAG (covered by jessicakencana ft. jenniferkencana)

forgive (?)

2012-01-13T00:57:00.000+07:00

just for this time, i wanna shout out loud, getting highly emotion. it makes me feel so weird. i was chatting with darryl for maybe around 30 minutes, but i got mad. really. just for this resolution of 2012, i push myself to not giving some curses. God, lead me to Your way. i have to forgive but it's just sucking me. i-hate-don't know who, maybe this man or only this conversation. i believe, he has a good heart if he could control his mouth seriously. we were discussing about my ever short hair, then he said that it really doesn't matter how short your hair is, as long as you have a good heart. i damn did so agree, then i told him that i was not a kind of good girl so i wanna try my best this year. that's all. and what he typed just successfully made me want to kill him badly.
he said, "people said, if you wanna try your best, you don't need to tell this to anyone".
o please, i didn't do an oscar speech, i was just telling what was on my mind to the one who i-maybe-still-trust (?). you got my answer, dude. i don't give a shit for what other people say. i am me, and me is just right. you know D, i ever loved you. i'm proudly putting a word only 'ever'. but i never hate you even for millions of time you broke me away into pieces. you were the only my ever guy could do these tracks all over again to me. i really never feel your love, even for once in my life. note this to yourself. you said i hurt you, but please think about it nicely..how-about-you?

fengshui

2012-01-12T23:39:00.000+07:00

2012. the brave water dragon year. i prefer look that so eye-catching fengshui book on gramedia to have some dinner. it was so interesting when stood up like nerd looking at the book that you don't even know the truthful itself. yaaaaa but i was enjoying it. read some fenghshui books, was giggling when caught some weird sentences which i-so-don't-trust. lol. still funny! i didn't read it alone anyway, i shared it with my lovely cousin. bit scared but still cheer. ya it's life, you just could do your best for all you will-or-have done. give it, and you will pay it for it. for good or bad, you choose yourself to.

"2012 is your good year. you will get rich, your healthiness is so well, love is wonderful and you will get success!"

one of those books wrote these words and i feel like flying. haha. i hope so. this year has to be my real year for sure. i DO believe. i will pay for what i gave last year. i was so totally down, and now i'm up. God must be hear my prays. all things bright and beautiful in His time.

not only for me, but also for you :)

terribly funny!

2012-01-11T19:00:00.000+07:00

nothing's better than being at home-and also with your lovely people around. jakarta, oh-how-i-love-you. just reminds me, i have lived for one and a half years in bandung. so this is my second year. am i happy? or do i regret? i don't even know. but this day i learn, there's nothing i have to regret nor remorse. everything's good indeed. my brother told me that he was flirting with my bestfriend's sister and it makes me laughing all day long. how funny it is. my brother is not a kid anymore. he's a very good boy. at least for me.

and so does my sister. thought she was just a little child-but then i realized that she is becoming a big girl. ohh there's ain't no other words to describe how i love this family. how i miss to hug them one by one everytime i go home. i love them like crazy.

i miss how we got to take this terribly funny-family time everyday at home. and today. i feel it again. not only funny, but also warm and lovely. pretty huge. but yes, i'm gonna leaving bandung for good on the next two years, and i really have to. God will lead me to pass these college years. i'll be back here very berry soon. and i'll be so happy.

for sure, i'm happy!

title says it all

2012-01-04T18:52:00.000+07:00

best-boy-friends

as i ever wrote that 2012 is gonna be my real year. yet i found that i have to give thanks to all people that really do existed in my life til this second of time. actually in love's life. big thanks to you my good guys ever. thanks for ever loving me. i am really sure that you all have a good heart :)

thanks for giving me my 'me' time. forever i would remember you. and all the days we ever went through together. have a good year ahead. have a nice life. live high!

;)

regards,

me.

MASIH TETAP TERSENYUM

2012-01-03T17:20:00.000+07:00

so i had chillax with this kinda song just today. i had quality chitchats with fellas and what they asked me was just true."we didn't see you like in trouble last year, so why are you getting so much afraid to put it all up in memory?"
hoo goodness, they never know what i's feeling about last year. but then my bestfriend reminded me how i tried to be strong last year. i got my own listening this song carefully, and hell to the yeah, i'm smiling for no reason. jazzy tune by hopenfaith, you-melt-me all over again.

hey soul sister!

2012-01-02T17:03:00.000+07:00

just wanna share at last what i've got on new year! tadaaaaa ~

passed away last year with my soul-sister yeah!

these really good pictures for sure. for seeking that my sister's getting well within days.

she is beautiful, such a wonderful woman being, cheer, humble and forever lovely.

i love her anyway

hello 2012!

2012-01-01T15:31:00.000+07:00

voila! it's 2012 already and this year i'm turning twenty-years-old. there were so much things happened last year both for better or worse, now i'm proudly saying those all were leaving only in memories. done.
i'm so much excited honestly to go through this year. many hopes and i have faith! last year was too grey to be true. i don't even want to remember it anymore. something's better left unspoken. i moved.
still same as what jessicasvoices ever had. still jessica-a girl-who's still smiling and keep cheering her life as long as she can. but, jessica is becoming the nicest lady in your ever world. hope it possible. i will try my best ;)
2012, i'm sure you are my year :)